tainted & twisted.

Harsh words and violent blows,
Hidden secrets that nobody knows.
Eyes are open but hands are fisted,
Deep inside I'm tainted & twisted.

So many tricks and so many lies
Too many when’s & too many whys
Nobody's special and nobody's gifted
I'm just me, tainted & twisted

Sleeping awake and choking on dreams,
Listening loudly to muted screams.
Call my mind, but the number's unlisted,
It’s lost in someone so tainted & twisted.

On my knees, alive but dead,
Look at the invisible blood I've bled.
I'm not gone, my mind has drifted,
Do not expect much, I'm tainted & twisted.

Burnt out, wasted, empty, & hollow,
Today is merely yesterday's tomorrow.
The sun died out, the ashes sifted,
I'm still here, tainted & twisted.

Wanderlust & all wound up.

Six weeks til Take Off. Yep, in exactly 44 days I will depart this enthralling city, sailing off on my first long-lasting overseas escapade. The ever so delightful date of April 8 is creeping up on me faster than I expected. I am not going to lie, my mind is racing. The term ‘excited’ just doesn’t cut it. For the next eight months, the journey is going to be my home. And in all truthfulness, I hope my mind never quite breaks off from this exhilarating adventure.

I feel like I am in search of something, but I can’t quite work out what it is. Perhaps I feel the need to find myself. Or work out what exactly is out there in this wild world. Or maybe I am searching for a feeling of satisfaction or fulfilment. Whatever it is, I hope I search the entire world for what I need, and simply return home to find it.

Adventurous and audacious, hazardous and headstrong, wild and wanderlust... My time has finally come, I am ready to be swept off into the depths of this wayward world.